Prayer to help me through this time
I would covet your prayers to help me get through this time I'm in.
I'm lowering my medicines for the wrong reasons - which I've stopped now - but the side affects are helping my old man come out and I need to put him down again.
I am getting off of them but I have to do it slowly because of the side affects. I'm talking 1/4 of dosage every 6 weeks, and I have to do this one at a time, and I'm on about 10 different medicines. Some of them I may be on for life but I'll see what can be done about those when the time comes.
The problem is that I want to get off of them too quickly and there's one specific side effect that affects my ability to think clearly and that unfortunately leads me to the sin I struggle with. So I'm stuck with lowering it slower than I want to, and I need patience.
The Lord has so much mercy for me and this situation and I don't want to get to the point where I'm not judging myself of this sin and to where the Lord has to judge it for me. So I need patience and guidance to resist the temptations that come when I lower the medicines even by a tiny bit.
And I usually get to the point where I just give up and go back on the higher dosage because I keep giving in to these temptations. This makes it hard to lower them, and I'm not sure if it's my mind that the dosage change is messing with or what, and I don't want to blame something else than me for failing here.
This is truly a spiritual fight, with these medicines.